Mentally exhausted, physically tired, happy and content. Drifting off to sleep.....BAM! Memory from 3rd grade science class and all the details that come with it (the food, the smells, my outfit, their outfits, the teacher, what was the teacher's name? it rhymes with C....ugh need to buy Clorox tomorrow. what else do I need at the store? what days is tomorrow? I wonder what the weather is going to be like...hot? cold? do I have clean pants if it's cold tomorrow?.....AND ON AND ON AND ON). Best exercise was given to me as a suggestion: stop think and body awareness. 1) stop the thinking / thought process - BLANK SLATE! 2) starting with your toes, acknowledge and feel your whole body, toes to forehead and forehead to toes. couple times through, deep breaths and remind myself that all that weird shit will be there waiting for me tomorrow, I wonder what the weather will be like?
I have not been diagnosed (yet) but I'm fairly positive that I have ADHD (31 year old femme "high achiever back in reward ladden elementary/middle school which is a main reason I feel it was overlooked). My dad has it as well as anxiety/depression which I'm also struggling with. But reading all this feels like everything I've ever felt. Rome wasn't built in a day? You mean I can't create an entire website for my small business in one day?! (answer: no I can't I've tried, then burnt out, and never actually check said website......except in spurts every now and then when I attempt to "snazz" it up. Anywho, I found you via twitter, and I'm so happy to have found this page!
Switching off is even more difficult in 2020; working from home every day has removed the forced end of day marker.
My switch off is knitting. I have a load of crafty/maker hobbies but knitting uncomplicated projects works for down time. I’m producing, busy enough to keep my brain engaged (most of the time) but also if I do go on a mental space walk it’s okay and can be put down when I’m tired.